Love is unpredictable

Dear Miguel,

       It’s been thirteen months and seven days and I’m glad that as I open my eyes, it’s still the same face I see. That sweet face, those unkilometric words that make my day, and those arms that wraps my whole being make me real sure about my feelings. This fall that happened between us may be too fast and clearly unplanned but it is real and sure. I’m sure that for the first time in my life I’m actually certain about a guy whom I will take good care forever. I want you to know that I wanna be with you every moment of everyday and I wanna experience everything with you. Whether it is joyful or lonely, it doesn’t matter. What matters is that I’ll always be right here, and I’ll never get tired of showing my affection and concern for you. ‘Coz this is what it is, I guess. I have irrevocably, undeniably fallen far you. I like you so much that I’ll let the whole world know that you are my life, my everything, my forever Miguel.

                                                                                                                                                  Forever yours,

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     This was my essay piece on my exam on speech communication class five months ago. Well of course, this letter may seem common to all love story writers or even people making love letters, but my experience is somewhat extraordinary.

     Four years ago, I had my first boyfriend. He was my high school sweet heart or you may call it first love. Well of course, I was young back then, really crazy with the idea of love. It came to a point that I have said, “He was the one.” that “I’m gonna marry this guy.” He was the love of my life back then. I was perfectly happy, truly in love and so much contented and satisfied. Time passed by and we have been together for three years. I thought it would be forever. But I was wrong. We grew apart and we ended breaking up. I was hurt and never believed in love again.

     Exactly three months later, I met this man from somewhere. Well actually, I’ve known him since high school because we went to this same high school and he was like an athlete, and one of the best. But I never liked him. I hated him that he’s so famous and popular. But that was before. When he suddenly appeared to my life, all my notions about him are far from the real him. He is charming, thoughtful, loving, caring, and my favorite, has a sense of humor. I was wrong. He is not boastful kind of guy I thought of him before. It’s funny because I have recently gone through a break up and so was he. And we’re like “Oh can we make fun of each other?”

     Then we started texting, chatting, making calls just for fun. I never thought I’d be so serious about him. Suddenly our game turned real, and we decided to be together. It was really fast and sure. I ever thought I would fall for this person so deep. I’m madly in love that it seemed like I was never hurt before. And the feelings I have for him now was never felt before. Yes, the other guy was my first love, but is it really love I felt before? Or is it just an affection I thought as love? This time it’s different. The true love I thought I felt three years ago was nothing to this love I’m feeling right now. And the saying goes “First love never dies”, screw it. It is not and will never be true. The guy I love right now may be just my first love or can be my one great love, or someday I’ll meet another one good enough to be my forever, who knows. Love can be so unpredictable and playful it just scares the hell out of you. So watch out!